Adventures of Juicy Jay

Sunday, October 8, 2023: I took two pregnancy tests and they were both positive.  Monday, October 9, 2023: I had a blood draw to test for my HCG levels and the results came back & they were at 713.13. I am officially pregnant (5 weeks along in my pregnancy) Friday, October 13, 2023: I had a follow up appointment with my Primary Care Provider (PCP) & they confirmed I was pregnant based on everything we had and we needed to see our OB before doing anything else.  Friday, October 20, 2023: We had our very first Ultrasound. They found 4 Uterine Fibroid Tumors (non-cancerous) but they couldn't see or hear the baby at all. They think that the UFT's are blocking their site of the baby. The best thing that we can do is make sure that the baby is still progressing by checking my HCG levels. They drew blood & the results were 12,000. (6 weeks along in my pregnancy) Monday, October 23, 2023: We re-drew the HCG levels and they came back at 14,000. So we are still progressing a...

Dear Grandma,  I remember when you told me that I had to stop living for everyone else. You told me, that my next step for my life had to be something that I wanted to do for me. I served a full mission in Houston, Texas and then came home to Arizona only to move to Idaho a little later.  I didn't know what would happen when I moved here. I thought that maybe Ben and I would keep dating and if that didn't work out, I would casually date for awhile and eventually many years down the road I would fine my partner and get married.  Since i've moved here, I broke up with Ben and I took some time to work on myself before I felt okay enough to attempt to put myself out there again. Right before christmas, I went on the best date i'd ever been on and got to know the man that I would date for next year. I never imagined it would all happen this way, but that beautiful man would become the most loving and kind husband I could've ever hoped for.  You always told me that my hus...

     There's a quote that I really love that reads, "... love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be".       The most important thing you learn in any relationship, brand new or long term, is that nothing should matter more than that other person and how they feel about you and the relationship. My husband tells me everyday how much he loves me and he shows it in his every day actions. I absolutely loathe doing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen due to it easy smelling like death but he cleans it every single day! He doesn't complain or get upset about how he has to keep cleaning the kitchen each single day.       Just the other day, I found a spider in my house near the back door and I nearly screamed but then I remembered that I have a loving husband to always A) do the dishes and B) kill/ get rid of all spiders for me!! So I, being the amazing wi...

Happiness is something that will just fall into your lap. Happiness is worked hard for and made possible through patience and diligence.  My own personal happiness is something that I have fought for each and every day, and no matter the challenges that come each and every day, I continue to fight for my life and what I can do to be happy again. I choose to fight for love and to find peace of mind through my own personal joy. The man I married has been described as many things such as heartless, mean and could care less about those around him. In reality, if you annoy him he could care less about you but for his family and close friends, he would do anything and everything for. For his wife, he would drop anything if that meant the love of his life was taken care of and cherished each and every day. He loves those closest to him and if you really know him then you truly are a key part of his happiness.  My husband has made me the happiest woman in the entire world and I seriou...

      Mental health is any numbers of things with anxiety, clinical depression and bipolar disorder. These are some of the smaller disorders or illnesses that almost most or even all the people have or are affected by. That being said, does NOT give anyone with these illnesses the right to treat anyone else any less than they are.  There is nothing wrong with taking the things that make yourself an imperfect being and becoming the absolute version of yourself.      Anxiety is driven by the worry and fear and can eventually include panic attacks, obsessive compulsive behavior and post-traumatic stress. If left unchecked and untreated, these three effects could have truly manifested and can cause hysteria inside ones own head and drive said person insane.       Clinical depression is persistently depressed mood or loss of interest in activities which WILL lead to daily impairment if left unchecked. If someone goes completely unchecked...

     Being part of something that is also a part of you, your family and a culture that you're still discovering is one of the best feelings in the entire world. Being part of the african american culture is learning more and more about myself each and every single day and loving who I am because of it.      I've learned that it's okay to treat others with love and kindness even when all they want to do is judge and disrespect you because of the color of your skin instead of judging you based on who you actually are a person. In middle school, someone in my grade told me that black people aren't real people. They weren't when they were slaves back in the day and nothing has changed. After he told me that, all I remember was being upset and pretty mad. I might only be part black but I am definitely a huge part of this amazing culture and everything that it has to offer me.       Recently, someone that I used to see quite frequently said t...